SOMETHING I WANT TO TELL YOU【原创】

jiajing_1983

一直是淡淡的不可名状的哀伤
可即使身边最亲近的人都不会懂
所以写了这样的东西
因为如果不写 我怕我会一直这样压抑着
写完也不敢放到博客上 因为怕没人会懂
只能放在这里
因为我知道 来这里的人 总会看明白

SOMETHING I WANT TO TELL YOU

I came so late
So that they sneered: you slowpoke, wrap your falsity and get away from the party!
They went on laughing or weeping
Debating or quarreling
But this time, you stop crying
Staring at us, smiling in silence

I kept searching for
What the hell you were looking for
A devil or angel has been bothering me
How is it? And who you are?
But this time, you stop screaming
Staring at me, smiling in silence

I got so confused
I must lose myself
I can’t stop thinking of you
I urgently seek for the truth about you
How is it? And who you are
The devil? The angel?

Then somebody trys to comfort me:
Release and move on
Truth could never be known
What you know is just what they want you to know
So just concentrate on the man’s genius
It doesn’t matter whether he has a good soul

I hope so and pretend not to care about you any more
Though it might be unfair to you, but it might not
Then your whoops and whispers chiseled in my heart
I heard you confiding and crying as a big child
I always consider you a gentleman, charming and sexy
But at that time, you were just a little boy, helpless and hopeless

Never mind others call you an idiot
‘cause sometimes I really think that you are that stupid
You kept saying that
“Change the world” and “Heal the world”
You really thought that you could make that change
But why can’t you change the ridiculous ending and heal yourself?!

Some like you; Some ignore you
Some bury you, and some take advantage of you
Maybe someone is right
That I was fooled, like millions of other fools
Watching or playing a circus act, but sooner or later
We would totally forget what’s happened and what's happening
But, I just want to make sure one thing
That how are you now in that cold and hallowed place
Have you found your childhood that you were always searching for?
Have you gotten the final peace and happiness that’s destined for you?
Do take care，the little prince

jiajing_1983

我来得太晚了
于是他们嚷嚷：太晚了！别假了，走吧！
他们继续或欢笑，或流泪
或争论，或吵闹
但这一次，你不再哭泣
只是静静地看着我们，微笑着沉默

我不停地寻找
你到底追求着什么
一个恶魔也可能是天使一直烦扰着我
到底是怎么回事？你到底是什么样的人？
但这一次，你不再尖叫
只是静静地看着我，微笑着沉默

我如此困惑
我一定是迷失了自我
我不能不想着你
我急切地搜寻着关于你的真相
到底是怎么回事？你到底是什么样的人？
恶魔？还是天使？

于是有人试图安慰我：
放松点，就这样吧
你永远也不可能知道真相
你知道的不过是他们想让你知道的
所以，关注天赋本身就够了
别再纠结他到底是什么样的人

但愿如此，然后我假装着不再在乎你
虽然可能对你不太公平，但也许不会
可你的呐喊和低吟再次钻进了我的心里
我听到了你—— 一个大孩子在倾诉和哭泣
我一直以为你是个绅士，迷人而性感
但那一刻，你只是个大男孩，无助而绝望

从来不介意别人叫你“傻瓜”
因为有时候我确实觉得你挺蠢的
你一直在说：
“改变这世界！”“拯救这世界！”
你真的以为你能改变一切么？
那你为什么不能改变这荒谬的结局，拯救你自己？！

有些人喜欢你，有些人漠视你
有些人诽谤你，有些人利用你
也许某人说的是对的：
我就是被愚弄了，像其他千千万万个傻瓜一样
我们不过是在观看或者表演一出闹剧
但迟早，我们会彻底忘了这一切
不过，我只是想确定一件事：
在那个凄冷而神圣的地方，你还好么？
你找到你一直在寻找的童年了么？
你得到注定属于你的宁静和幸福了么？
小王子，千万千万保重

绝爱MJ

真的真的好想他。。。我的王，你现在在天堂过得快乐吗？哪里是否有很多孩子陪着你？