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本帖最后由 flypigbaby 于 2009-7-7 08:33 编辑
原来她其实一直都爱着MJ，即使离婚以后也一直爱着他。只是因为无法将MJ从当时的情况中解救出来而感到沮丧，愤怒，失望和悲伤，因此她最终选择了离开，并强迫自己对MJ保持冷漠和疏离的态度。离婚后的那段时间她一直处于一种非常愤怒的状态，因此对媒体说了许多关于MJ的不好的话。然而，在听到MJ死讯的那一刹那，她这么多年来努力保持的冷漠和疏离都不复存在，她对MJ的感情又都涌上了心头，她为MJ不停地哭泣，并想起了MJ14年前对她说的一番话：他预言自己会像她的父亲猫王一样死去（猫王在1977年8月16日猝死），并且非常地肯定。
大概就是这些吧。可能也许论坛有人已经贴过了？如果大家感兴趣，我再抽空翻译一下吧。总之，MJ和LMP之间当时是真心相爱的，而且她自己说自己非常非常地爱他。。。哭~本来多好的一对
He Knew.
Years ago Michael and I were having a deep conversation about life in general.
I can't recall the exact subject matter but he may have been questioning me about the circumstances of my Fathers Death.
At some point he paused, he stared at me very intensely and he stated with an almost calm certainty, "I am afraid that I am going to end up like him, the way he did."
I promptly tried to deter him from the idea, at which point he just shrugged his shoulders and nodded almost matter of fact as if to let me know, he knew what he knew and that was kind of that.
14 years later I am sitting here watching on the news an ambulance leaves the driveway of his home, the big gates, the crowds outside the gates, the coverage, the crowds outside the hospital, the Cause of death and what may have led up to it and the memory of this conversation hit me, as did the unstoppable tears.
A predicted ending by him, by loved ones and by me, but what I didn't predict was how much it was going to hurt when it finally happened.
The person I failed to help is being transferred right now to the LA County Coroners office for his Autopsy.
All of my indifference and detachment that I worked so hard to achieve over the years has just gone into the bowels of hell and right now I am gutted.
I am going to say now what I have never said before because I want the truth out there for once.
Our relationship was not "a sham" as is being reported in the press. It was an unusual relationship yes, where two unusual people who did not live or know a "Normal life" found a connection, perhaps with some suspect timing on his part. Nonetheless, I do believe he loved me as much as he could love anyone and I loved him very much.
I wanted to "save him" I wanted to save him from the inevitable which is what has just happened.
His family and his loved ones also wanted to save him from this as well but didn't know how and this was 14 years ago. We all worried that this would be the outcome then.
At that time, In trying to save him, I almost lost myself.
He was an incredibly dynamic force and power that was not to be underestimated.
When he used it for something good, It was the best and when he used it for something bad, It was really, REALLY bad.
Mediocrity was not a concept that would even for a second enter Michael Jackson's being or actions.
I became very ill and emotionally/ spiritually exhausted in my quest to save him from certain self-destructive behavior and from the awful vampires and leeches he would always manage to magnetize around him.
I was in over my head while trying.
I had my children to care for, I had to make a decision.
The hardest decision I have ever had to make, which was to walk away and let his fate have him, even though I desperately loved him and tried to stop or reverse it somehow.
After the Divorce, I spent a few years obsessing about him and what I could have done different, in regret.
Then I spent some angry years at the whole situation.
At some point, I truly became Indifferent, until now.
As I sit here overwhelmed with sadness, reflection and confusion at what was my biggest failure to date, watching on the news almost play by play The exact Scenario I saw happen on August 16th, 1977 happening again right now with Michael (A sight I never wanted to see again) just as he predicted, I am truly, truly gutted.
Any ill experience or words I have felt towards him in the past has just died inside of me along with him.
He was an amazing person and I am lucky to have gotten as close to him as I did and to have had the many experiences and years that we had together.
I desperately hope that he can be relieved from his pain, pressure and turmoil now.
He deserves to be free from all of that and I hope he is in a better place or will be.
I also hope that anyone else who feels they have failed to help him can be set free because he hopefully finally is.
The World is in shock but somehow he knew exactly how his fate would be played out some day more than anyone else knew, and he was right.
I really needed to say this right now, thanks for listening.
~LMP
以下是从另外一个好心的帖子从引用的翻译，我自己也加了一小段翻译：
“几年前迈克尔和我来了一次深入的谈话，我们一起谈了生活。具体的细节，我记不清了，但是他可能问过我有关我父亲去世的情况。在某个时候，他停顿了一下，他很紧张地盯着我，他几乎非常平静地说道：‘我担心我会像他那样结束生命，用他的方式。’我立刻试图阻止他的这个想法，而那时他只是耸耸肩并点了点头，犹如让我了解，他知道会发生什么……”
“14年后，我坐在这里，看着救护车离开他家的新闻，看着大门口外、医院外的拥挤人群，看着媒体对他死亡原因的预测，我们那次谈话的回忆触动了我，我的眼泪止不住地流……我没有料到当他预测的事真的发生时我是这么地伤心。”
“我没有帮到的人目前正送往洛杉矶验尸中心，我现在要说出我之前从没有说过的事情，因为我想要第一次说出一些真相。我和迈克尔-杰克逊的关系并不是媒体报道的那样，是的，这是一段不寻常的关系，两个不同寻常的人不知道怎么和‘正常生活’联系起来。尽管如此，我相信他是爱我的，而我也非常爱他的。”
“我想救他，想从刚刚发生的事情中拯救他。他的家人和亲人也想拯救他，但是他们不知道14年前的事情。在那时，我努力救他，我几乎迷失了自己。他有难以置信的动力和不可低估的力量，当他用它做好的事情的时候，会得到最好的结果，但当他用来做不好的事情时，也会有最坏的结果。”
“MJ的身上从来不可能会出现“平庸”这样的字眼。当我发现无法把他从某种自我毁灭的行为和那些可怕的吸血鬼和水蛭的包围中拯救出来时，我开始变得充满敌意和筋疲力尽。我抱头痛哭。我必须做出决定，因为我还有两个孩子要照顾。我做出了最艰难的决定—离婚，我从他身边走开了，虽然我是如此绝望地爱着他并想要阻止或改变一些（不好的）事情。很遗憾，离婚以后的几年里，我一直没办法不想着他。于是，我在这段时间里对所有的事情都充满愤怒。”
“我现在坐在这里，我迄今为止的最大的失败让我感到悲伤、百感交集、非常混乱。看着那些新闻，简直和1977年8月16日那天发生的事情一样，和迈克尔14年前预测的一样，我真的，真的被摧毁了。”
“他是个很棒的人，我很幸运曾经和他那么亲近，和他有过很多共同的经历和岁月。我非常希望他能从现在的痛苦、压力和风暴中解脱。他应该摆脱这一切，我希望他现在正在一个更好的地方，我也希望那些觉得自己没有拯救他的人也可以得到解脱，因为这是他希望的结果。全世界是震惊的，但是不管怎样他比任何人都清楚他自己的命运，他是对的。我真的需要去说这些，感谢你们的聆听。” |
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