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micah

venez comme vous êtes                                         You smile at me, and even the angels are jealous
maybe I'm just better off this way? when I was there, trying everything to hold my eyes open, trying everywhere to get my empty bottle back.....you weren't there
guess I'm gonna be 'alone' alone afterwards. wow, what if I didn't force my baby bro say those words- I was born alone, and doomed to be alone.......how come I still couldn't let go? when my time comes, will I be able to take it as it once gave me my life?
mom said that one should love life, not merely being alive, and always be grateful. ironically, I AM the one that loves life, yet where's mine..
venez comme vous êtes, i came as I am, and waiting for the world's cheering. nah, I'm not born to be alone, I'm breaking it, as the way I AM TRULY born to be!
je t'aimais, mais Je ne veux pas me voir plus triste.
you smiled at me, and even the angels were jealous............

It’s been almost 3 years.
I can recall the very first day we met, vivid as it is, now I don’t see it as I did. BTW, I wore a little makeup that day to make me look kawaii^^. I learned that Virgoes are angels that always protect their love. You are a Virgo and you were my angel.
The first time I fell asleep in your arms, you didn’t wake me up tho’ you’d got numbness in’em. When I woke up seeing you looking into my eyes, I SAW YOU, and it was like ’K, this is it, we gotta be a couple, for like always’.
You can’t drink much, but you did drink and there is once that I will never forget. After me telling you that Ning’s papa’s got leukemia and might not survive, there was silence, grave silence that dazed me. You drank a whole tin and hugged me so tight, telling me that you WOULD treat our parents well. I knew you would.
On Jun 26 last year, you told me that you were suffering cuz Michael’s gone, I felt so sorry for you that I told you I was also painful n’ I was a fan of him as well. No I wasn’t, I mean I wasn’t a fan of him and had there been no you, I wouldn’t have given a rat’s ass. I got to know Michael and love him only because I loved you. My! Isn’t he perfect, literally perfect? He is also a Virgo, a true angel that god sent to save the entire human race. I’ve told you that I never believe that a good person always gets a good life but he or she tends to die young cuz I believe that to some extent living in this f**king world is kinda suffering and god knows that so he always brings those good back to heaven as early as possible, well, after their treating (not healing, cuz that’ll take a while….) the world of course. Undoubtedly, Michael is one of them. Now, there are always 8 oudda 10 songs in my shuffle that are Michael’s, I just can’t live without him anymore and you know what, I AM a huge fan of him now and always. I became such a michaelmania that I made myself buy those albums and book for you only from abroad so that we might feel a little closer to him. Silly huh? Nah, at least I don’t think so. Ah, and the two sets of the official Michael Jackson opuses, those are our favorite!
But after the ‘unfortunate incident’, things between us changed. You still call me baby but it just doesn’t feel right, you no longer text me the way you did, you won’t even call… I miss you, the former you. Luckily there’s one thing that didn’t and won’t change, that is me loving Michael. I’d enjoy his music every day, in fact I am listening to his will you be there now.
      In Our Darkest Hour In My Deepest Despair
      Will You Still Care? Will You Be There?
　　In My Trials And My Tribulations
　　Through Our Doubts And Frustrations
　　In My Violence In My Turbulence
　　Through My Fear And My Confessions
　　In My Anguish And My Pain
　　Through My Joy And My Sorrow
　　In The Promise Of Another Tomorrow
　　I'll Never Let You Part
For You're Always In My Heart.
But, will you still care? Will you be there?